A really long and depressing rant.

I quit. I fucking quit. No matter how hard I study, my grades ALWAYS suck. I don’t know what else to do, I study my fucking ass off for every test now, and my grades still suck. I’m ALWAYS average or below average and I am fucking tired of it. I’m crying so hard right now because I just want to be a good student and make my muom proud, but I can’t because my grades suck. The only thing I’m good at is English, and guess what? I DON’T STUDY ENGLISH.

I used to be one of the best students IN EVERY SINGLE CLASS, and then I went to college and I don’t even know if I like this course, but I stuck with it. Now I’m more and more certain that it’s not right for me, but I don’t have the courage to drop out because I’m terrified this might be the wrong decision and I’m freaking out because I don’t want to let people down. I get so sad every time this happens because it just makes me think I’m worthless and stupid when I know I’m not. I HATE Politics, and I don’t even know why I chose International Relations in the first place now.

Thank God I’m taking exams again to try and get into another college, but if that doesn’t happen I don’t know what I’m going to do.

1. liliumtigrinum said: I went through the same thing when I went to college. If this is making you miserable, then I think switching is a good thing. A lot of people have been where you are. It’s okay, you’ll get through it <3 you can talk to me anytime.
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